6.9.11 / 1:08 AM
seriously. sometimes good quotes, you might not be able to understand what
they means from the first time. but later on, as things move by, and bit by bit,
when you savour it, everything just seems to be meaningful.
我有自己，自己有我，就好了。——quoted from奈特
yeah, today i've experienced what he meant by 我有自己，自己有我.
i might not need any close buddy already, because i have none.
it's pathetic, i know. but i am a sore loser who doesn't deserve anybody.
i thought that i treat all my friends very well, and expected them to do the same.
but i was wrong. my thinking was so wrong.
i thought that what i give out = what i get back.
like what she said, "你只想到自己受到的伤害，不给人任何机会解释，不说明你哪里不满，那么，你要我怎样？如今，你这么的无情，那么，我也不需要再忍耐了吧？这样你开心了吗？"
i am tired, and i bet all my friends are tired, tired of putting up with me.
so am i.
(on a side note)
我不是不想说明我那儿不满，因为坚信你这个朋友，我并没有白交，
所以有很多事情，都不会和你讲明，摊开来说。
我以为，我真的以为，我们是那种，只要看脸色，就知道哪里出了事。
可是现在我知道了。我明了了。
这一切，都是我的错觉！我也真是的！一个和我整整四年多的朋友的
好朋友，都未必能够做到这点，所以我还真是刁难你了。难为你了，
我有点抱歉。这样——
