19.9.11 / 2:03 AM
Center of Attention wannabe.
just like my title, i wanna be the CENTER OF ATTENTION.
Haha. i know i know, i am not pretty, or should i say i am not even
'lookable' if there's such word, and neither do i speak perfect and fluent
english. i am just a nobody to everybody out there.
but within me, i wanna be somebody, somebody like Xiaxue,
em, like Pxdkitty, like Nicole Chen, like ZoeRaymond,
like Michelle Phan, and my super mega love, NIGAHIGA.
i am so so so inspired to be like one of them,
so well known, at least people know them when they are out there.
be it markets, streets, malls , and where ever you can think of.
a ticket to be like them, is to gain popularity.
i tried, tried so hard, example, keeping my blog 'alive' like anybody
out there, and even started my youtube channel early this year
with a "BANG" haha~! i mean bang cut:)
subsequently i went for auditions for the 'let's talk' show,
many said that us(the jiongers) went there for fame,
but well, what i've got to say here, is we actually love to share experiences.
be it good or bad, we just love to share.
for others, i don't know what are the other reason which drive them there,
but for me, during the audition, i said that i want more people to see me.
Yah, that's my point, if i don't want people to know me,
then why would i bother to go?! i could had stayed at home, munching my
snacks, and laugh out loud, instead of panicking here in my house when
my dad's around, right?
so i wouldn't deny that i wanted Fame,
but i failed. like again.
Blog, Youtube, and Tv appearances.
Gosh. how far would it take for me to reach my final goal?
It seems to be so far away from me.
I need motivation, i need to keep the fire within me to continue burning.
This is me, I wannabe the CENTER OF ATTENTION,
I am giving myself 3years time. if it still fail on me,
i would give up :)
21th birthday, it would be the deadline,
main target: idk how to mark or rank myself to be center of attention.
but by then, i think i would know:)
YUP~! bye!!~ :)
